Lots of noise going on in my head at this time. I was getting help but I was losing my grip. It was time to return to nature and landscape. Shut up and paint! I was bored of my psychosis. Thinking post mortem and post mortem audiences inspired Life is Something, Death is Nothing. I like my crazy. I was not looking for a way out or worse a cure. I was just trying to lessen the pain and avoid stupid mistakes. In the end, thank goodness for stupid mistakes.