Here is my scream. Here is the darkness. This is fighting for life as I knew it. I did not want to accept that the relationship I had neglected, was being true to myself. I was stuffing my desires and feelings by focusing on others. This isn't healthy for me or a relationship. It should read,"Fuck Me, Love You". It is kind of how I am wired. Care taking is part of my DNA. I will go on to create several different versions and iterations of this painting though I have always liked the rawness of this one.