Now that is an ugly painting. Yep! Sometimes I am just looking at the closest thing to prime my muse. It is good to let go of expectation. Honor your warts. Just paint. There is also the practical matter of survival. I traded "THE AZALEA TRAIL", @54X66, 1986 for an old Mazda GLC. I had an art admirer that wanted this painting but did not want to part with his money. I knew he had this car and I figured I could trade for it and sell the car. I ended up driving it for two years before I sold it.